The Journey Begins

Emerson said, "We are always getting ready to live, but never really living." I have to confess that this is true of me. I am am starting this blog partly as an attempt to move from getting ready to live to really living. I guess the first thing that needs to happen is defining what it means to really live. I am sure a few people have thought about that in the past, but what does that matter. I need to define this for myself.

First, I will attempt to define myself as in my current state. I am thirty something, happily (most of the time) married for the past eight years. I am currently a stay at home mom. I have two boys that are three and five. My five year old is on the autism spectrum and constantly challenges any ideas of maturity and wisdom that I ever had about myself. But life is all about growth and improvement. Right?

I have struggled with my weight since birth, and this is one of the areas that I really fall into the getting ready to live trap. Thoughts like, "I will buy nice clothes when I am a size __ or I will be more outgoing when I look like ___". I am sure I am not the only one to feel this way, but it is a good way to miss out on life. I am trying to focus on getting to a healthy and comfortable weight while I have more time (since I am not working outside the home right now). I am currently doing water aerobics and trying other things like yoga and pilates. I took my first yoga class last Thursday and the backs of my legs are still sore, but I have to say that I loved the class even though I couldn't do all the poses yet.

I am the type of person that has a wide interest in just about everything. But right now my main topics are herbs, organic living, living a more eco-friendly, non-toxic life, and thinking about what I want to do when I grow up. The more I read about these topics the more I want to know and the more I want to change how I have been living.